I Remember and You Live

When words are not enough,

And tears come too quickly,

When memories are vivid,

And time passes slowly,

I remember.

First Days. First Times. First Cries.

I remember.

Thinking you were the one and only.

Juking you at soccer just once.

Coming to terms with ‘no.’

I remember.

Classes. Projects. Homework.

Bus Rides. Walk-mans. Music.

Soccer. Weekend games.

Penland Parties. Summer Adventures.

Days. Teachers. Years.

I remember.

I remember now.

I will remember always.

You live.

You live in memories.

You live in hearts.

You live.

For my friend.

Finding Contentment

When I was young, I had delusions of grandeur. I was going to own a beautiful home with a beautiful family and everything was going to be beautiful. I was going to be an actress. People would laugh and cry and forget their worries. I was going to be a singer. People would pay to hear me perform. I was going to be a writer. People would say I was a literary genius. I would make a difference. I would transform lives. I would be remembered.

Phil 4 12After years of living and learning, I have exchanged my delusions of grandeur for my joys in reality. I live in a home in a beautiful mountains of God’s creation. I celebrate my family. Sometimes we are beautiful; sometimes we are dysfunctional. But we are always family. My greatest audience now is a congregation of my friends and fellow seekers. I usually make them laugh, but have made them cry too. I sing to them and sometimes they put money in the offering plate and pay God for the gift he gave me. I write. The verdict is still out on the literary genius thing. (Okay, so I haven’t traded that one in yet.) I do make a difference to my family, my friends, my students, and anyone who will let me. I’ve realized that I can’t transform lives, but I know who can and I give Him all the power and the credit. And as for being remembered, only time will tell…

May we find contentment in our lives!

Resolving Not to Resolve

Today is the day.

We dream about all the things we want add to or eliminate from our lives. We dream about how wonderful life will be when we finally do. And the list is long. There is so much left to do with our lives. And tomorrow is the start of something new and wonderful!

We vow to post on our blogs every day.

We vow to eat healthier food.

We vow to paint that room or finish that design concept…finally.

We vow to get in shape, drop a few pounds, and tone our muscles.

We vow to start that degree or finish that degree.

We vow to read our Bible, pray, and fellowship more faithfully.

We vow to get our yard, our house, our finances, our legal affairs in order.

We vow to travel to that destination on our bucket list.

We vow to be slower to anger and more ready to laugh with our children, our friends, and our family.

We vow to be the best version of ourselves, the best us we can imagine.

And then comes January 2, January 3, and so on. And each of our noble vows becomes a challenge, a stumbling block. Our inability to keep them makes us feel like a failure. And then we rewrite the rules, tweek the plan, and somehow end up further from our ideal self than when we started.

So I invite you to join with me, resolving not to resolve. Don’t make a New Year’s Resolution! January 1 is not the day to set goals and become the you that you dream of.

sunriseInstead, I invite you to join me in being the best we can be each and every day: to love where we are, to serve others, to laugh, to express our creativity, to learn something new, and to embrace responsibility; to recognize that the perfect us will never be, perfection only belongs to our Savior. But you and I will find moments of perfection and cling to them when the failures come. And you and I will rise to a new day and start all over again!

Each day is a new beginning!